What I would give for 10more minutes....

Do you remember how are amazing unique relationship began, over 2years ago me being pregnant and not allowed out on my own due to health reasons, you asked mamma p if I fancied coming on a little trip to Monmouth with you for those horrible faggots you lot love so much... Remember the ones wrapped in bacon that played havoc with my morning sickness. So I came with you, first time I spent real time with you apart from our tea and Toast we had every day for months. It was a beautiful day, there was an accident on the m4 which you moaned about all the way there stopping I between to describe all the bowling greens in each county as we passed them. When we got there you showed me a beautiful church it's was having work done it and you told be all sorts of things about, we decided to stop in a little cafe for a cup of tea before going to the butcher! We all know how much you loved your tea with two sweeteners. We sat down and had a cup of tea and a cupcake you chose a pink one "for the little girl in your stomach" you said! That's day was lovely especially when you got up to go to the toilet and you bashed your head on a low beam with a horrendous crunch. I couldn't sped laughing almost crying I must have looked like the worst granddaughter in law ever, but it was really funny. After getting faggots from the tucker for what seemed the entire community of grange town you got so many we headed back. That was the first of our very many little outings, to Monmouth, Swansea market, Morrisons for lunch, to watch you bowl you name it we did it. I loved spoiling you making your tea and toast everyday even if it meant putting that horrible dripping on it, i'll never live it down when I put butter on the toast then dripping :/ woopsy. That was just the start of only 2 or so years together but when you spend every single day together with odd exception you became a significant part of my life and then my children's lives to follow, everyday hurts without you and we are getting by, but it still hurts. Missing you really badly today Lou lou bear asks about you all the time and points to your picture saying my grr Grampy. I love the way everyday you came in and she would race to your chair and shout my chair and you would play fight and she would eventually let you sit down. We found your favourite jam the other day at last just a pitty it was a few months too late.... All the way down Tenby in a little shop but I would go there every day to get you a jar if it meant I could give it to you. I can't get over you won't be walking me down the aisle, however you will be there n spirit and I promise we will never forget you never. The kids will growing up knowing how amazing you are and how much you meant to us. I hope your ok wherever you are just know that I love you and I would give anything for just 10 more minutes..... Just 10 more minutes.......

Shwmae?... Hello how are you

Well as it says in the tittle I am going to be waffling on about my journey so far! I believe life is one big journey where one is to experience all kinds of situations which make them who they are today. However I believe my journey really truly began when I became a mum, everything in my life changed when I found myself to be expecting my first child, I finally felt like I had a purpose and was no longer floating around. This blog isnt for a purpose just a way of me sounding off About life, a way for me to write down what instead needs to come out and maybe even a way of me assessing life past present and future as if I write it down I feel I may be able to get a better picture of everything and maybe even make some progress mentally! So here goes.... Me blabbing away!